It's been a long time since I've been here. I haven't even been on my laptop since 2012. Too lazy I suppose and using the iphone is much easier again lazy I suppose. :) It's pretty good here in Long Beach. The weather is nice and cool at night and around the 70's during the day. The pups are doing well and so is Katsu. Glenn has a new girlfriend and spends as much time with her as he can so life goes on....
I won my disability case and I also receive Medi-Cal which helps me out immensely so no worries. LMAO Well hell Life isn't that grand but it's not that bad either. I've been taking a lot of pictures lately and adding them to Instagram and I'm on my 3rd Season of Lark Rise to Candleford so I keep myself busy.
I hope all of my tblog friends are doing well and keeping warm for those of you in the nippy areas. :) Blessings to all and I will try not to be such a stranger. :)
I'm not sure if you will ever know how much I love you my dear grandson. I've loved you since the day I found out that you were conceived and my love has grown stronger with every day since your birth. I know it's not your fault that you don't know me and I don't know you as well as I would like but difficulties in life have kept us apart. There is no sense in pointing blame because it's hurtful and doesn't make the situation any better. I just want to let you know that you were loved by your moomoo and don't ever forget that. I want you to grow up to be the best you can be. I want you to respect and treat others as you want to be treated. I want you to Love and Live the best life that you can make for yourself without hurting anyone in the process. Be strong when you have to be but understanding always. I want you to know God and Love Him as He loves you. Follow His word and the Laws of the Land and you will be able to conquer anything in your life. I love you, Brayden Forever and Always.
Glenn and I started our day by going to see Loopers. It was a pretty good movies but I think editing could have done a better job. Then we headed to Yasai for a light lunch. Glenn had salmon and I had a chicken breast bowl. We had to do some shopping and while Glenn was in the automotive store I got this wonderful shot of the clouds overhead. We stopped by Frosted for a cupcake and then home. Great Day!!
...a stressful couple of weeks in September already. Last weeks was my dad's birthday and this week was my moms and Glenn's moms so it has been a lot to deal with. I suppose as you get older it gets harder and harder losing those you love and being left behind. I'm happy that all of them were in my life and taught me many lessons. I'm thankful for the gifts that each of them shared with me and hopefully I will be able to pass on their gifts as well as mine for those that I love. <3>
My daddy was born in 1938 to Tom and Elois Foy of Quitman, GA. He passed away in 1996 at the age of 57 due to complications of Diabetes. There isn't a day that I don't think about him and his beautiful smile and and his bright blue eyes.
I've been busy at facebook getting to cousins that I haven't seen or talked to in over 25 years. I'm so happy that we have found one another again and hopefully we can keep the lines of communication open. I'm going in with an open heart and I hope they are as well.
Tomorrow is my dad's birthday and then next week is my moms and Glenn's moms birthdays. It took me a very long time to get over my daddy passing but I'm finally able to breath and talk about him without crying. I miss him terribly but now I know first hand what he was going through with his diabetes.
He passed at 57 in 1996. The way I feel most days I'm not sure I will make it that far. I'm trying very hard to be the best I can be but when you are in pain all the time it's hard. The last time I saw my daddy was a week before he passed and he told me I won't be around much longer and I brushed it off but now I know how he must of felt and it scares me.
Any way I didn't come here to bring everyone down I just needed to get a few things off of my chest. I hope all of my pals here are doing well.
I'm not really into politics and my cousins are all republican and I know that isn't the way to go because I lived under Romney's rein in Boston when I was there for 5 years and he wasn't liked very much there at all by the locals. I will keep my mouth shut as to and whom I think would be the best because I don't have the energy to debate it. heheheheh Love and miss you all. Hugs, Zissy
We have moved to Long Beach and life is starting to even itself out. Glenn is liking his new job at Thane and is away to La Quinta, CA to meet up with the VP for the next couple of days.
This last weekend we went to the Getty Villa and it was gorgeous. I was exhausted by the end of the day but we had a good time. If you ever have a chance to check it out go. The exhibits were amazing and the grounds were beautiful.
I hope all of you are doing well. I'm going to try and catch up with your blogs and find out what you all have been up to.
Sitting here watching The Ten Commandments and wanted to stop by and say hello to all of my friends here at tBlog. All of you have been so sweet to me these past few months and I wanted to let you know how much I appreciate the love that you have shown me. I've been in bed for the last week and I hope that I will be able to get up for a little while tomorrow. It's going to be a very sad day for Glenn, Eddie and I but we are strong and will get through it. Remy was a big part of my life the last 13+ years and I will definitely miss her because she loved spring and Easter. As for my mom I will always be sad for the years wasted by pride and anger. Love your family and friends because you never know what tomorrow brings. Hugs, Zissy
...went to my doctors appt. thinking I was fine and I ended up being taken by ambulance to the emergency room where I stayed until late into the night. I was asked for a specimen and after it was checked all hell broke loose. The doctor came in and asked if I had any belly pain and I said yes for some time now and he said ketones are showing up in your urine and with the stomach pain we need to send you to the hospital for them to check your pancreas. I wasn't happy at first but I agreed and went. What a freakin' circus! I ended up being there for 10 long hours and they never did a scan of my belly or anything the doctor said they would do. Instead I had my vitals taken twice, gave into to emergency doctor, taken to a room with a prison inmate and given 2 bags of fluids with some morphine for pain that I've never had in my life. Sent back to the waiting room hopped up on morphine in which I could barely sit up in my chair to sit for hours until the results. Was finally taken to my bed CRIT3 and asked to disrobe from the waist up. Physicians assistant comes in and says well your blood work shows no signs of ketoacidosis which is very serious but you do have a UTI. LMAO I'm sorry u know it's not funny but a 10 hour emergency room visit for a UTI? I have no insurance and I really should be crying but after the last couple of months I've had I guess this is a piece of cake. Ain't life grand? :)
I haven't been around much and I wanted to stop in and let you know that I am doing ok. We are really busy moving from our apt. to Glenn's family home. Also I have met a few family members on Facebook of my moms that I never knew and some I haven't heard from in years so I have been messaging them. I want my life to go back a few months but I know that isn't possible. Well I have to get ready to go to the doctors but I will return later today and catch up on my reading here at tBlog. :) Hugs, Zissy
I made it home last night and was so exhausted that I ate, showered and off to bed. My legs and feet are so swollen from the trip if they don't go down by tomorrow I'm thinking I should call my doctor.
I had to leave my mom yesterday sitting up in the bed having her breathing treatment in hospice. It broke my heart that I had to leave but we have to get packed up and moved by the end of the month and Glenn can't do it on his own. We are staying at the house because his father went to CA for a week to be with his family and we are here watching the house until he gets back.
My mom has always been my mother because she wasn't a comforting mom. I've never known her sober and neither have my siblings. To this day I don't know the demons she was trying to get away from and it's probably none of my business. All I know is that she wasn't strong enough to be the mom we needed but she did take care of our basic needs by working. Of course the person she is today sitting in her hospital bed isn't the person I've known for all of those years. The person I visited for the last week is someone you could love and that smile melts your heart. So much time wasted and that is something some of us will have to live with us and others will carry that with them to the other side.
My sister called me today because our mom has been sleeping all day and isn't with the program and that is scary to us because she has been up and at 'em. We were worried that they were giving her too much morphine but they aren't the doctor has also added a relaxer and that is causing her to be out of it and sleeping all day. We want her to be as alert as she possibly can without being in pain so hopefully they can get that all regulated. When we are there she doesn't complain that much about being in pain and we have had to encourage her to let us and the nurses know when she is in pain. My sister just called a few minutes ago and I said a few words to mom and she was a little more with it and up eating sherbert so that is good for my sister and her boys to visit with their grandma.
Most of my adult life I was a home health nurse but when it's close to home this is some tough stuff. I've made more decisions in one week than I have made in years and it's scary the questions they ask you. This is the life of someone else that you are now in control of and it's very scary. My baby sister unfortunately has the bulk of it because she lives there and is with our mom every day. I'm worried for her and wonder how long she can keep all of this up without breaking down. So I pray for her and ask those that know me to please keep her in your prayers because what she is doing isn't easy. To top that off our moms boyfriend is involved and since he has never been married and doesn't have any children he has asked my sister to help him as well. All I can do is be a sounding board for her and try and give her some advice but it's up to her to listen to it. She has to learn not to give all of herself but some have to learn that the hard way.
I'm happy to be home but I definitely wish I could be there for my sister. Please keep us all in your thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Zissy
My mom has been moved to hospice upstairs. All of my sisters crew is here right now visiting her but since she has been sleeping all day I'm not sure she will waking up. I thought it best to
Stay in the waiting room and not crowd them.
My moms cancer is stage 4 advanced mastitized to the bone all over. It will be weeks to months but she will not live a year.
She wants no heroic measures and wants to be cremated with no ceremony.
They will start morphine tonight to make her comfortable.
It honestly breaks my heart.